Marrying George Clooney

it all began a couple of days ago. i have met the most amazing woman because of my book. women from all over the country, telling me how much they love MGC, and how i have given them courage and hope, and the gift of laughter, and now they don’t feel alone in the world, and all that great good stuff that makes you feel like you’ve done something of unbelievable value.
and then there’s the other stuff that bubbles to the surface.
a couple of new friends asked what they can do to help get the book out in the world in a big gigantic HUGE way… and i have to admit (full on) that what came up for me was a profound uncomfortable feeling mostly the shame of “i can’t ask for help.” i’m not sure where this all originated. most certainly when i was a kid, a young girl, and no doubt some event or moment planted that seed in the forever cellular body. asking for anything is excruciating for me. excruciating. most women i know suffer from the same pain, the inability to ask for, to feel comfortable on the receiving end, to put out in the universe what it is you want… oh, god i could go on… but i decided in that moment of frozen, i would ask these new friends, these gorgeous amazing women for help.
one wrote to oprah telling her how much she loved this book, and it changed her life and even posted a wonderful THE BOOKS THAT CHANGED MY LIFE post on vibrant nation. thank you melody!!!!!!
julie and jesse put a list together of the most amazing folks to write to, and started a viral campaign telling folks how important this book is for women in midlife.
and kristine & molly offered to do everything and anything to help get the book out in the world in a huge way.
i took a baby step.
i did.
i said yes, please, help me. and i only felt a teeny bit of nausea, not the full on “oh my god i’m going to get sick” feeling that often accompanies my fear of asking for what i want.
so, with open arms and a massive amount of tums, i welcome any and all help, suggestions, and offers.
or as my wonderful delightful therapist said, look upward and say in a clear crisp voice:
I AM READY TO RECEIVE.